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Hating suffering?

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(cross posted to my other blog – http://salixefic.wordpress.com/  )

Hate is an incredibly powerful word.  The feelings encompassed by the word are sharp and full of pain, anger, anguish.  It’s oppositional and defiant.  And it gets thrown at us parents by our children at times when they resent the parenting we have to do, the discipline and the consequences that we mete out when necessary.  It’s a momentary thing, an expression of anger and resentment.  But as adults, with a knowledge of history and the wisdom of experience on our sides, the word “hate” can fill us with fear – hate is, after all, what fuels genocides, wars, riots – painful, awful death and destruction.

It clearly isn’t something anyone with a conscience would want to cultivate.

But what about hating the bad stuff, like suffering?  What about hating that which causes suffering?  Opposing suffering is good, of course it is – who wouldn’t want to end hunger? homelessness? the pain of illness?

Especially if the one suffering is your own child?

Is “hate” right in this context? Is this the only right time to feel “hate”, when you mean to oppose suffering and that which causes suffering?

I’ve been thinking about this for a couple of days after a post from a friend on Facebook ignited a serious debate.  The article she posted was this one:  http://rayhemachandra.com/2014/10/27/hating-your-autistic-child/

One of the author’s main ideas was that you cannot separate the autism from the person, so to say that you hate “autism” really means that you hate the person with autism.  Several people in the comments section on the article itself as well as my friend’s Facebook post wrote passionately and articulately that it is possible to hate the autism and love the person, that it is indeed right and necessary to separate the two, as the autism causes so much suffering for the person.

How can we not hate that which causes our children to suffer?

The last thing that I want to see as a parent is my son suffering.  And I think, as I look back, I’ve spent a great deal of time hating that which seemed to be causing his suffering, and doing my best to oppose it.

But as I look back, that feeling of hate, the sharp, gut-wrenching feeling, was also sapping my strength.

Hate, the red-hot angry hate that you feel sometimes, is a sort of way, I think (in my admittedly unprofessional capacity no-one-in-particular) to activate your energy initially.  My therapist once said that anger is a “call to arms”.  Don’t dwell there, but use it to get things started that you need to do.

So maybe it’s right and useful to feel “hate” for something that’s causing your child to suffer, but don’t dwell on it.  Hell, I don’t think we can help but feel some hatred for that which causes someone we love to suffer.

But it must be a momentary feeling.  Fleeting.  Dumping its lightning energy like a storm, then blowing away.

Dwelling on the hatred of something just makes for more suffering, as I can attest from experience.

But maybe that initial shot of energy can be used to do what we can to help mitigate the suffering as best we can.

Because ultimately, suffering can never be wholly eliminated.  We need our energy to help mitigate the causes as best we can, and to help each other cope with our suffering through love and compassion.

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Zener is back! And Kung-Fu Cinema is ON!

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While I was able to appreciate my alone time when Z-boy was gone (it’s so lovely to be able to write without distractions!), I missed him dearly.  Every time I watched a movie, I’d think about how much Z would have enjoyed it, and missed his laughter and exuberance. 

What we’ve explored so far:

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Snake in the Eagle’s Shadow (1978) – an early Chan movie, the first of his iconic comedy infused kung-fu style.  It’s a fun movie and features many (most?) of the same actors as Drunken Master (1978).  Jackie Chan plays an orphan at a kung-fu school who is maltreated by the instructors, but soon befriends an old beggar who happens to be one of the last remaining masters of the Snake Fist style.  The Snake Fist school is being systematically destroyed by the Eagle Fist masters (for no adequately explored reason, as Douglas Adams would say, but hey, it’s a kung fu movie, it’s not about the plot!).  The fighting is excellent, and pretty near bloodless.  One rather huge issue, for me, is the scene where a cobra and cat are fighting.  Hong Kong cinema had no rules to protect animals from harm during filming, and I fear that both the cat and the snake came to serious harm.  I skip the scene (fortunately, it’s only about a minute or two).  Zener loved the Cat Claw style, and has made constant attempts to use it against me since watching the movie.  I have scratches. 

The English dubbed version is available for free viewing on Crackle.

 

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Fearless Hyena (1979) – Another early Jackie Chan film, made after his huge successes with Drunken Master and Snake in Eagle’s Shadow.  This one is more serious and dramatic, yet it still features Chan’s comedic style.  The fight at the end is stupendously complicated and wonderful to watch.  The plot for this one is more traditional, and revolves around Chan’s character’s, path of revenge.  Which is apparently a very typical plot device for Kung Fu films, but as I’m new to the genre, it’s not a cliche yet for me.  This one is a tad more brutal than the others we’ve seen so far, but still pretty cartoonish. 

Zener was on the floor laughing for many of the comedic fight scenes.  We also decided that Jackie Chan was adept at “Bum-Fu”  and “Tickle-Fu”.  Zener was already familiar with “Tickle-Fu”, since that is my primary style of defense against his attacks. 

Zener also had quite the reaction to the inevitable “Shirtless Training Scene” where Jackie Chan is dragging two very heavy bags across the ground. He said, with wonder and awe in his eyes, “He looks so cool!”

"He looks SO COOL!"

“He looks SO COOL!”

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So I told him that if he wanted to be strong like that, he needs to work on his push ups!  And he did do a much better warm up set in Karate after viewing this movie.  Chan-spiration strikes!

Bonus:  chop stick fight, which undoubtedly provided the inspiration for the one in Kung Fu Panda. 

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Kung Fu Panda 2 (2011) Both movies in this animated series are wonderful films, and Zener and I enjoy them greatly.  The second film is darker and more serious than the first, but still beautifully done. 

Bonus:  Do I detect hints of Shaolin Soccer in the final showdown between Po and Shen?  Methinks I do! 

Jackie Chan – Spirit Guide

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Jackie Chan, Spirit Guide

Jackie Chan, Spirit Guide

I have developed a deep appreciation and love for Jackie Chan’s work.  Z-boy and I have been exploring Kung Fu movies since he’s gotten into Karate.  I had suspected that Jackie Chan movies would appeal to Z the most due to their comedy (which is pretty much the only thing I did know about his work).  The first movie we tried to watch was Super Cop (1992), but Z didn’t like it because of all the guns and explosions.  So I switched to the other Jackie Chan movie that was available on Netflix  that I’d actually heard of – Legend of the Drunken Master (1994).  I was surprised by how good it was – I had this idea in my head that Jackie Chan would be too goofy and stupid to enjoy – how wrong I was!  We both absolutely loved it, we loved the goofy slapstick and the amazing artistry of the fight scenes.  Z gets really into movies, to the point where he’s kicking and punching and jumping around with the action on screen.  Legend of the Drunken Master had him doing all that as well as doubling over in fits of hysterics.  Big win!

Legend of the Drunken Master - so very Chan

Legend of the Drunken Master – so very Chan

 

Later, we watched the original Drunken Master (1978).  While the fight scenes were not as impressive as the later version, it was still a great deal of fun and we enjoyed it.  It also served as a “teachable moment” – Chan’s character, the young Wong Fei-Hung, is a wastrel in need of discipline and direction, and as such, is portrayed as very whiny and petulant.  I have no idea how annoyingly whiny he is in Chinese, but the English voice dubbing actor whined and whinged almost constantly through many scenes.  So I asked Z if his whining was really annoying, and he said “oh yeah, he’s a spoiled brat, isn’t he?”  Yes  he is!  Did you know that that’s what you sound like sometimes? Do you really want to sound like a whiny spoiled brat like the young Fei-Hung?  “No…”

I think Z can really connect with a lot of Jackie Chan’s characters, and the man himself seems like a decent sort of bloke for the most part.  So I’m happy to have more Jackie Chan around for my son, as a source of inspiration for his training, as well as for life  in general.  Thus, Jackie Chan is our Spirit Guide.

(And lucky me, while Z is gone visiting his grandparents, I get to preview his films!!!!  It is simply too much fun, and I’m so excited to watch them with him! Watch this space for suggestions and reviews of martial arts films you can watch with kids!)

Jackie Chan Prayer Hands pic credit:  http://www.martialartsmoviejunkie.com/2014/05/15/jackie-chan-becomes-a-civilian/
Legend of Drunken Master pic credit: http://perisphere.org/2014/07/20/jackie-chans-amazing-drunken-master-at-the-trylon/

On the benefits of afterschool activities

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Karate class continues to go well!  They have started a module on Philippine stick fighting techniques in a style called cinco teros, or in their tradition, senco teros.  Z-boy has been working very hard and improving greatly in focus, concentration, control, and technique.  It’s so incredible to watch him blooming!

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Sinawali (yes, it’s blurry to obscure identities)

I hope he can link this into other areas of his life.  He’s been working so hard, and he loves it, and he’s so excited to progress and move on to new, more complicated, and therefore more awesome techniques and skills.  He wants – really wants – to earn his next belt.  He’s also very worried about being able to do well enough in school to get his teacher’s to sign off on his belt promotion.  He thinks it will take him all year to do it.

So self-confidence is growing, but not yet in the area of school.  I had hoped to catch one of his favorite instructors to have him give Z a pep talk, but he was off this week.

So my plan for this school year:  make sure he has plenty of after school programs scheduled for when he’s at his dad’s house.  While he’s at mine, we’ll concentrate on karate, choir, and homework (as his dad isn’t really capable of helping him with writing and math).

For one thing, having afternoon/evening activities reduces the likelihood that the ex-girlfriend will be able to visit him (his dad allows visits, against my wishes).

But perhaps more importantly, it will surround Z-boy with different types of people, many potential positive role models.  And friendships with kids who share his interests and lift him up.

And of course there’s the opportunity to build skills and confidence in himself in a relaxed and friendly atmosphere, and he can carry that confidence into his school day.

I don’t want to “over-schedule” him, but at the same time, I want him to see the wider world, and to feel he has a place in it.

So I’m going to get him into 4-H, possibly a drama and or dance class, possibly gymnastics, possibly fencing, possibly violin lessons, possibly robotics, possibly computer programming.  Not all at the same time, though.  But there are so many potential avenues for growth!  I’m going to try to make this the best year yet!

 

 

Firescribbles

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4th of July!  My (very basic) camera has this fun “Fireworks” setting, which allows you to take very nice pictures of fireworks if you have a steady hand, or even better, a tripod.  As I do not own a tripod, I decided to experiment with shaking and swirling the camera while it was taking the picture, thus capturing:

Firescribbles!

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I like this firescribble a lot

I like this firescribble a lot

“I want to be enlightened, mom!”

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I am a hard core, highly passionate, nerdy nerd.  Especially about history.  I’ve discovered there’s no subject that’s boring to me as long as I can learn a bit of it’s history.  Even finance and economics (subjects I’m simply not drawn toward) can be interesting when examined through the lens of history. 

But when given a subject that I’m interested in anyway, like martial arts, I go all out, borrow as many books and videos from the library as I can fit in my backpack (and my library card!), and engage in seemingly endless internet searches.  Yeah, ok, I’m a bit obsessive, but it’s the good kind of obsessive, right?

And my poor son gets inundated with information.  Because I care, dammit, and I want to spark his passion!  (Unfortunately, sometimes I think my attempts to spark his interests tend to get smothered by all the library books I get for him… all things in moderation, mom!)

In learning about the origins of Karate, and thus Kung-Fu, I’ve learned that they were part of the spread of Buddhism from India.  I’d never really seen Kung-Fu movies before this year, with the exception of  Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, not because I had no interest, but just because I was more interested in other things.  So yeah, the whole Shaolin Temple thing was news to me.

And that is truly fascinating – Buddhism, which emphasizes peace and non-violence, being a big part of martial arts?  Huh?  How does that work? (I don’t really know! More study needed!)

So we’ve watched some wonderful documentaries about Shaolin and Buddhism, and Z-boy has been really taking an interest, asking about how old you have to be to become enlightened, how do you learn, how long does it take. 

How beautiful is that?

 

 

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